A View on the Other Side

I positioned myself in the center, just barely so I can notice the whole scene before me,
I'm met by the sun's smile following me so intensely,
I'm drowning on my own sweat, as I lay there still and breathless,
How could I be so slow and careless?
The sun's ray seeping through my unprotected skin as I observe the panoramic view,
I can feel the heat circulating my body and my sweat starting to trickle,
I see children outside playing and a car's headlight flicker,
I looked at my watch and I see the sun setting,
A thousand miles away from desolation, as bliss edges its face from the horizon,
Here's nature's beauty at its finest. This is the beginning of a new adventure.
I let my mind wonder through the burning temperature,
There goes the night sky I thought, as I caught a glimpse of the North Star,
I'm glad I live in the suburbs, where you can see afar,
The city lights ruin the whole beauty of the stars glow; therefore it's harder to enjoy their purpose. I start thinking to myself what my purpose was in this life,
Can one person live perfectly without any strife?
I feel very intuitive and moving, peacefulness sets me pondering,
I realized there's more to life then brooding, so I relaxed and drank the night away,
I let night consume me and waited for another day.

Mr. X is a workaholic who needs sleep. Everyday is the flipping same...

Someone is trying to get me back....and...i am concerned....

Sorry Na

Parokya Ni Edgar

Sorry na kung nagalit ka di naman sinasadya
Kung may nasabi man ako init lang ng ulo
Pipilitin kong magbago pangako sa iyo

Sorry na nakikinig ka ba? Malamang sawa ka na
Sa ugali kong ito na ayaw magpatalo
At parang sirang tambutso na hindi humihinto

Sorry na talaga kung ako'y medyo tanga
Hindi ako nag-iisip na-uuna ang galit
Sorry na talaga sa aking nagawa
Tanggap ko na mali ako wag sanang magtampo
Sorry na

Sorry na wag kang madadala
Alam kong medyo nahihirapan ka
Na ibigin ang isang katulad kong parang timang
Na paulit-ulit kang hindi sadyang nasasaktan

Sorry na saan ka pupunta?
Please naman wag kang mawawala
Kapag ako ay iwan mo mamamatay ako
Pagkat hawak mo sa iyong kamay ang puso ko

Mahal kita sobrang mahal kita
Wala na akong pwedeng sabihin pang iba
Kundi sorry talaga di ko sinasadya
Talagang sobrang mahal kita
Wag kang mawawala
Sorry na

Relationships

Gone through plenty of those...been there..done it...not to boast about my personal interests, altho i should really say my weakness...since i cant seem to hang on to one...but point being, it's one of those things i'm not very keen and succesful in. One of my many flaws i'm currently fixing. I guess i'm a very picky fellow about this types of issue, there has to be something about that person that will appeal to me...however, i'm not gonna nit-pick and elaborate about every characteristics of each girl, when its pretty clear that every girl is different. The thing is, i was never in dire need of a partner, or a significant other. I didnt mind dating, i just thought it was something i could enjoy, but never really get serious. There were times where i found myself deeply enamored by a girl i was dating, only because she could keep me interested..but it wasnt true Love. It was more of an intense crush, and plenty of lust...hey what can i say, at that age..my hormones were increasingly volatile. lol. Consequently, it wasnt something i was looking for...as i grew older, i became more aware of the troubles of relationships...through experiences, ive gone through the ups and downs, the weirdness, the cruel heartbreaks, the unhealthy attachment..yes....thats happened to me a few times, i just realized that the one thing that annoys me in a relationship is people who are clingy. I'm glad u miss me, but geez, u dont have to call me multiple times and txt me 8 straight in a row and tell me that. I got ur point the 2nd time. One who needs to literally hold on to me every second just so she can be satisfied needs to find self-comfort or a teddy bear, like my friend says, "don't sweat my balls"...let me breathe...don't get me wrong, i love to cuddle, however, when my arms start numbing and getting red from all the squeezing, its not common. However, that idea backfired when i start to really like someone, to the point that i'm the one doing all the clinging. For instance, a year or two ago...i met this girl name Kim, she was a sweet yet mischievious girl..she likes to mess around, play with ur mind...a very flirtatious girl, she was someone who could keep up with me, and i admired that. As our friendship grew, so were the fondness and the connection...it became clear that we had to talk to each other otherwise our day would be less exciting. There were times where one got jealous of the other and arguments would arise, the bad thing about it was that we were both in a relationship at the time and it conflicted our feelings for each other, like one time, when she talked about her bf non-stop, i got pretty annoyed by that, or another time when she thought i was ignoring her, she got upset and assumed that i didnt wanna talk to her anymore...stuff like that made our "relationship" (w/e it was) tenuous and complicated. In the end, we never got together bcuz of the fact that our excessive attachment clashed, having two clingy people in a relationship will never work.

Truth of the matter is, i never thought love would find me...i never searched for it, never even thought about it, until one person came into my life and changed everything. She became food for my soul, blood that kept my heart beating, my inspiration, the one who "lights up my sky"...my "other half." Whenever she says something sweet, i smile...when she says "I love you" my heart skips a beat. I find myself doing something new everyday because she inspires me, she's not willing to change who i am...she loves me for me, and that's all i can ask for. And i love her just as she is. There are times when i get in my clingy moments..the one thing i despise, i'm developing into. Like today, all i could think of was to talk to her, unaware of the technical difficulties...i thought she was ignoring me after i sent her 3 txt msg'es..i got irritated and said something really mean and harsh, i didnt realize the phone was acting up and she wasnt ignoring me...now i feel bad about it. It never happens often though, i try to reduce those moods..usually im successful..i know the difficulties in our situation, thats why i try to deal with it...but this time, i wasnt very patient and i snapped...which i deeply regret and i'm sorry for that. Thing is, i'm very open about the relationship, i dont mind hearing about guys hitting on her, or the strict procedures, and other things...as long as the trust isnt broken, 3 things love should be about: honesty, consistency, loyalty. and space being the fourth one, u gotta keep some space just to breathe u know?